My top 5 favorite foods!

These might just be my favorite. Tamales. My mom makes these every Christmas and sends them to us.:)




Mexican fish cocktail is absolutely delicious!





And of course, chicken quesadilla




Fish tacos are another favorite. The best ones come from closer to the ocean, as the fish is more fresh, and they love to serve them in different styles!



The first is pollo ranchero. It's chicken breast usually topped with queso and is served with spanish rice and beans and flour tortillas.

I am

I am from Michael and Ruby, Antoinette and Anthony, James and Lydia
I am from the spacious deserts of Arizona, and the green fields of Ohio
I am from home cooked meals , and Sunday family dinners
I am from having to many rules and breaking to many rules
I am from going to church every time the doors where open
I am from , honest always work hard, succeed, driven and proud
I am from, hard workers and stay at home mothers
I am from love and generosity
I am passing it all on

I really dont know what to say

So, I dont care if noone reads this, Its really for my benefit anyways.

Long story short, I was adopted, birth parents shouldnt be allowed to walk on this earth, met birth family and siblings almost 3 years ago and still don't know how I feel about them

And they want to get angry at me because for now I've stayed int the background?

You lost the right to be any part of my life, when DCFS in AZ felt you werent fit to be parents! You disgust me.....You should feel privileged that I even decided to speak to you int the first place! You like to say, : oh those accusations were unfounded and completely false! " ... Yeah? Then why did you serve time in prison for child abuse and neglect?? As a parent I would NEVER put my self in a situation where someone could misread it and assume I was doing things I shouldnt to my children.....


I was raised by the best and most caring people in this entire world. They selfishly shoes to raise someone else s children, when they could not have their own. They stepped up to the plate, when you 2 where off gallivanting int he USA. Remember that, when yous say you "searched" for years to find me. Cause according to the paperwork, you had chance after chance to be a part of my life. My adoptive parents where more than willing to give you BOTH a chance to be there for me, until they finally saw that you where both worthless and should just go away.

Don't comet tell me how it wasn't awkward for my other siblings ( who you lost btw)to come and meet everything and form an almost instant relationship. I don't need that with you! I don't need another set of parents, who didn't even want me in the first place!

I really just don't know what to do. I was raised to not deal with the drama, so I chose not to!


* GRRRRR *

Happy Birthday!

Happy Birthday to me!

Quote from WCW

Rumor can run all the way around the world, while Truth is still putting on his pants- Mark Twain


This quote is definitely something we should all stop and remember at some point or another in our lives. The speed at which rumors can spread is amazing, and it seems that 9/10 none of the information is even true!

I know how easy it is, to just repeat something you where told, and pass it on, and then the cycle never ends!

There is other stuff I wanted to ramble on about this quote, and then it all flew right out the window! LOL.

Point being, I love this quote, and should probably remember it a bit more often than i do :)

Nervous Wreck

I hate to see my kids in pain! Even if its something small, at least I can fix it!

My youngest was born with kidney problems, and will have them for the rest of his life. While he is otherwise healthy, he was recently diagnosed with Juvenile Diabetes, or Type 1. Things had been going to great! We where able to keep it under control and everything seemed to be smooth sailing. Until a few days ago.....Since Monday his sugar has been dropping and have been increasingly difficult to get back up. Tonight will be his first night in the hospital and I am completely devastated. I thought we had this under control, I know I cant fix this one, but I tried :( and now my baby will be poked and tested once he's admitted. He's a trooper though, barely even cries!

Hopefully this stay will be one of few. I don't think I can handle tons of hospital visits :(

Quote

I found this quote while browsing some random person's blog and I really like it.


"Great things are not accomplished by those who yield to trends and fads and popular opinion. * Unknown *

Late!

I am always on time for everything!!! Well until now. I now feel the pain my mother felt when trying to get me up for school every day! and I feel I must apologize to her! LOL.

Its tough trying to get 2 kids, under 3 ready and out the door, and they aren't even in school yet! My 2 year old,sleeps as much as a 16 year old, and is as crabby if you try and get him up to early!

I will definitely be glad when this semester is over!

This week has been crazy for me. Went to buy new insurance on Monday and found out that our title does not match the vin number on our van. uhhhh!!! So after countless phone calls and tons of google searches, we had to leave our van where we bought it from while they took care of their huge mistake! Thank goodness none of us got a speeding ticket in the last year,or that could have been an even bigger mess!

Now onto bigger and more important things. Like planning my son's birthday party! i cant believe that in a week he will be 3! Soon he will be 15 and asking for a car for his next birthday! I'm a little nervous, because, this year all his little friends form daycare are coming to his party! Definitely should be interesting.I had said, I was going to be on top of it this year and have everything done a week early, for the party, but once again, the only thing i have done, is the decorations bought, and the cake ordered. I have not even bought one single present yet!!! So if you see some crazy lady dashing around Walmart at 2 in the morning, next Saturday, that will probably be me! LOL.

I really didnt mean to!!!!

So I had a very scary moment happen tonight..

Mind you, I am typically a safe driver...No speeding here :D

Anyways. It was 10pm, just got home after a long day at SWIC, and I was pulling into the gravel drive in front of the building where I live at. I looked up and in front of me( I am almost certain, out of know where) was a car. This car was black, had very tinted black windows and huge rims. The car was also "jacked up" as they say. Instant panic shot thru my chest, because I hadn't seen the car until now, and I almost had a head on collision! The car swerved around me and kept going, but I noticed it had slowed down somewhat. I turned off all my lights and kind of sat there, waiting to see what was going to happen, and sure enough the reverse lights on the car light up and the car came speeding towards me...backwards...

I felt the cold terror of fear grip my heart and I couldn't moves! I watched as the car sidled up along side my van, and felt my legs began to shake as the car's window rolled down. All i could see was the brim of a baseball hat and the outline of a face. I couldn't tell if the person inside was waving at me, flipping me off, or yelling. I was to scared to even breath, but I waved my hands in an apologetic motion, mouthing the words " I am sorry, I didn't see you!" ( As if that was going to help any..) For some reason that I cannot explain, I felt compelled to dial 9-1-1, and wait....I merely dialed the numbers on phone and did not press the call button...A few seconds passed, which really felt like hours, and then the window rolled back up, and the car sped away. I waited until I could no longer see headlights and then tore up the stairs to my apartment...

My legs where shaking so bad, I barely made it up the stairs! It sounds silly, but I live in a very small town, and I suppose if the guy wanted to come back, I wouldn't be hard to find...

I think I might find it somewhat difficult to sleep tonight.

Love

Happy Valentine's Day Let the festivities of over indulgence in awesome chocolates and huge bouquets of roses begin!

Stressed!

I'm beginning to think I can't take much more of all
the stress I have going on right now!!!

Last week my van decided to break down in the middle
of the road on the way to school! Now mind you I had gotten the recall notice way back in October on my awesome Ford, but was told my the Ford dealership they had no parts so there was really no point in bringing it in. So go figure the day before they had me scheduled to come in, my axle broke..Luckily I wasn't going to fast and was able to pull over fairly easily.


Monday I recieved a call from my sister who was 34 weeks pregnant at the time, with the news that she had delivered my newest niece! 5lbs and 2 ozs, she was struggling to breath and had to be placed on a CPAP machine.

Meet: Claire Ruby-Antiontte

She's tiny, but shes definitely a fighter!

On Tuesday we received a phone call that my father-in-law and my other niece had been in a head on collision! Of course this sparked a wave of panic and fear, as the niece who had been involved in the crash lost her father over the summer in a fatal motorcycle accident.

Thankfully they where ok and only sustained minor injuries from their seat belts and airbags.

I'd like to let the rest of this week know, that I really just need a break and if things could quiet down that would be fantastic :)

Hope you all had better weeks than I

New Begennings

So I clearly have not kept up with this blog as I originally had planned, 2 years ago!!!

Things have changed in major ways since then. Hubby made it safely home 9 mo's after
our first child was born :) and then 10 mo's later we where blessed with another beautiful
blessing. Another son!

DH is no longer in the military and is attending SWIC, as well as I am.

I am very proud of him as he will be done in January of 2012! He will have his Associates
in HVAC/R.

My current plan is to become a nurse. Right now that dreams seems unattainable and so far
into the future, but with alot of hard work and determination, I know I can get it done..